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13 August 2013 @ 10:40 pm

The Field

Shattered spears, broken shields
Silent cries of victory.
Broken walls, bloodied fields
Hero lies with enemy.

I have the feeling I'm plagiarizing someone with this one.

11 July 2013 @ 03:54 pm
Crap. I've been writing poetry again. And it's free verse! What on earth has come over me?

The best conversations happen in parked cars.

The inevitability of the goodbye,

The knowledge that with a single motion

The car door is open

And you might not see the other person again,

Perhaps just for the night,

Perhaps forever.

But in those ephemeral moments

The ones where the sun has gone down

And the lamplighters are letting you know that respectable people went to bed long ago

And armed full well with the knowledge that it must end--

I've got work tomorrow morning

And you're too tired to even think straight

In those moments

Those fragile, egg-shell moments that could easily be broken by the flick of a door handle

Those are the moments where you let your guard down

Where, staring at the dashboard and idly adding up the digits in the mileage

You let the other person see you.

And, remarkably, you see her, too.

And instead of furiously unbuckling

Or starting up the car with a terse “Good night,”

You both sit and talk

Enjoying each others' company, to both of your surprises

And when the time finally comes when you really, really must go

As you've insisted five times in the last half hour

The car whirs back to life and you see that your fragile moment lasted for hours, and hours, and hours,

And you can't wait to do it again.

Would you like a ride? you ask.

The best conversations happen in parked cars.

23 June 2013 @ 10:55 pm
A poem about leaves by Richard P. Allred

Follow the autumn leaves
Dance on the breeze
And never stop dancing
Till you find that sunny glen
Where frost ne'er dares to creep.
11 January 2013 @ 12:15 am
You know, I think that I really shouldn't make any kind of decisions or conclusions about emotions on weeks where I'm menstruating. It causes issues (ha! pun!).

Anyway, I had an awesome day today. I spent most of it just talking with people that I like. Productive? Psh, ha! Fun? Definitely. I even went to country-swing today, and yes, Michael 3 was there, and yes, I danced with him, and dang, he is really quite good at leading. I'm not too bad at following, which is nice. I don't much like country, but I do like dancing, and I decided that this year I am going to learn how to do things instead of just constantly avoiding them out of embarrassment. That doesn't mean I'm going to start going to the gym or anything (hey, I can't cause miracles) but I do want to learn how to do stuff. So I'm gonna join church choir and work on piano and cello and learn how to shoot pool and dance and paint better and. . .well, whatever else I think of. I just want to be a better person. Life just seems to be getting better and better, tearing my hair out because of dramaz not-withstanding.

I like doing things, making things. The other day I made a new necklace. It's a small sculpey flat round token that I painted a snowy scene on. It turned out rather nice. I've made another one with mountains on it, and I'm planning on making a fall one and whatever else I choose. I might put some pictures of 'em up. I really enjoy painting eensy weensy things. They go by quickly, but they're still challenging.

Anyway. Lunch group is going to happen, starting next week. Shooting bows should happen relatively soon. We'll see what other trouble I get myself into. Life is good. And. . . that's rare for me. I just need to make sure I don't forget about class while I'm having fun. :D
10 November 2012 @ 10:22 pm
Today was a good day. Which is a big deal, for me. It's weird. I've had my depression under good control for the past year or so, but it still feels. . .it feels strange to have very good days again. It takes some getting used to, honestly, because there's still that sense of worry in the back of my mind that the good feelings are only temporary and that tomorrow might be a crashing chandelier of misery. The likelihood of that occurring is very slim, nowadays, but it became the norm for me for such a long time. I'm still trying to get into the habit of being happy again.

Good things that happened today:

I looked nice. My hair wasn't great, but it was passable, and the rest of my outfit looked good. I've started wearing camis and jackets, and it still feels a little strange to have so much of my upper chest exposed after wearing T-shirts and turtleneck sweaters for the past couple years. It's gonna sound trashy, but I kinda like being able to show a bit of cleavage from time to time. I bothered to put on makeup today, which I am endeavoring to do more regularly, as I feel more comfortable in it and people like me better in it. I'd say oh woe, our society is so short-sighted and judgmental, but I honestly don't think it's that big of a deal. People take note of the way you present yourself, and makeup is part of the presentation--same as shaving is for guys. A woman who hasn't taken the time to apply makeup is going to look unprofessional, just as a man who skipped shaving will. Not a big deal, but it does make a world of difference.

And speaking of looking nice, I saw Aaron and his wife at the mall. I waved and said hi, Aaron and I exchanged pleasantries, and then they went into Quiznos. I stood around waiting for my friends to get there. Aaron's wife, April, came out and said hi to me again, saying that I looked nice and she didn't recognize me before. I laughed. It's kind of fun, I think.

I got to study with Shiloh for a while. Now, don't get me wrong, studying biochemistry is zero amounts of fun, but Shiloh is quickly becoming one of my best friends. I feel really comfortable around him, and he's funny and sweet and is easy to talk to. And today I kind of surprised myself by doing something that I haven't done for. . .well, for years, probably. I got playful and started mock-arguing. I'm really not sure why I feel so at ease with Shiloh, but I do, and it's just terrific. We talked a bit after studying about our plans to run a Farmer's Market stall; he's going to sell ice cream and snowcones, and I'm going to sell homemade candy and sweets. It is going to be awesome--and I might even make a little bit of money! Huzzah!

After that, I went to a fancy-pants dinner with my friend Kaylee and some of her friends. It's fancy-pants because everyone is supposed to dress up for no good reason. I was still in my normal clothes, but I looked pretty nice. We went to a buffet. I think buffet restaurants really bring out the mischievous side in me. The person sitting next to me, Dan, complained early on about how he doesn't like the taste of sweeteners. Kaylee had talked about Dan before, so I had a kind of sense for the type of person he was. He turned his head away to talk to another dinner-mate for a minute, and I quickly dumped a packet of sweetener into his water. He took a sip and said "This water tastes funny." He passed it over to Bo, who agreed that it tasted odd. Dan asked if it tasted like sweetener. At that, I couldn't hold a straight face. Dan seemed to get a kick out of it (and switched his water with the person next to him when she wasn't looking). At a later point, the girl across from me had a dumpling on her plate and told me to make sure the waiters didn't take it away. As soon as she got out of view, I grabbed her plate and handed it to Dan, who hid it--he was already reaching for the plate, as I think we had the same idea. The girl got back and shook her head at me. I solemnly swore that the waiters didn't take the plate, and she eventually got her dumpling back. I don't think she really took it well, though. Sad. I still think it was funny. Like I said, though, buffet restaurants bring out the worst side of me, or at least the pranking side. XD

This is all really just some slice-of-life fluff, but. . .I like the fluff. I think the best parts of life are the fluffy ones. Today was just a typical day, if I think about it--but it feels special to me.
How Ya Feelin'?: happyhappy
27 August 2012 @ 07:07 pm
By now, I'm sure y'all are tired of hearing about Big Dog, so I'll be brief. I came across this website yesterday, and have no idea why it exists. It's just as hideous as the other website. Its subtitle is "Complaints on Worlds of the Crystal Moon", and yet the reviews posted are all 5 star ones from Amazon. Hmm.
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23 August 2012 @ 05:53 pm
So today I got a rather. . .interesting email from the Oversized Canine today:

Hi [Predak],

  Being you're our toughest critic to date, we thought we would share a ROUGH DRAFT of the new kickstarter video we have produced and please ask for your comments. We have no doubt [Predak], you will have some interesting comments so don't hold back we want to hear them all.

The theory here is to encourage kids to read and embrace reading and reading comprehension thru virtual/physical rewards.  We believe for a person such as yourself this will be a breeze and we will inevitably have to ratchet up the questions considerably; although for the average reader some of these question will be quite difficult and challenging to answer. We are sure you will be able add your own list of questions that will trip up most readers and probably even the most advanced.

This is how it works, at the end of each chapter there will be a series of questions regarding that chapter.  Once you answer the questions correctly you will unlock the the augmented reality and free your baby Dragon, in addition you will be able to participate live via "AR" in that part of the book. Now it's up to you to grow and nurture your baby dragon to maturity. This becomes quite challenging as the books progress but the best readers will eventually prevail. There is so much more to this technology that rests in the book that the readers will have to hunt for and find, only the best of the best will survive!

 WOTCM Kickstarter


       Watch This to understand the future of AR


It's oh-so-very tempting to write an excruciatingly snarky reply to this. I think I'm going to go the straightforward path, though, and tell Big Dog that no, I am not going to do his work for free. I might point out all the problems and flaws I see with this in an amusing fashion to my readers and friends, but I'm not going to willingly be a part of his project, especially if I'm not on the payroll.
So a little bird told me about this new website.

Good to see that googling "Worlds of the Crystal Moon" brings up something other than my spork. However, I gotta say that this is the ugliest website I have ever seen in my life.

The "About the Author" section is. . .well, frankly, it's way too personal a story. An author's blurb shouldn't be about childhood abuses. There's a time and place for talking about those things, and it's not on your book's promotion website.

I think I'll end up sporking the whole website proper (because there's so much there that needs to be snarked) but I'll hold off for a while. Maybe they'll fix it up so it doesn't burn my eyes.

Oh, and the "Augmented Reality" thing? This is what it is. Super exciting. I gotta love how you have to have a tablet or smartphone in order to get that aspect of it. That's not going to alienate anyone.

His initial Kickstarter bid is threatening to be $100K dollars. Um, sorry, no. Have fun getting no money from that, as there is no way you'll be able to meet the goal. There are very few KS that breach 100K, and they've got a lot more of a fanbase than a crappy self-pub fantasy novel that no one cares about.

There's ambitious projects, and then there's delusion. This is jumping the shark on even Gloria Tesch's shenanigans.
15 August 2012 @ 10:40 pm
GI 18
Grayham 39

I did it. I finally finished World of Grayham.

On to the next!
13 August 2012 @ 12:49 am
Well, I can see comments and my toolbar on LJ again. I uninstalled all the programs I didn't use on this computer, completely wiped Firefox, and started over. It seems to have done the trick. I am still unable to play Farmville, but I suspect that's because I updated Flash like it told me to, and this new update is crap. I'm hoping that in a few months, it'll update again and I can start playing FV.

Last spork chapter should be done within the next week. Fingers crossed!